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[weirddreams]

Sam planned everything. Asking Dean had only been the first step before he would propose to Ruby; the other steps he took included talking to John and Mary how they would feel if he proposed to her (a demon) as well as ring shopping. He also entrusted Dean to hide the ring while he formulated a plan. The plan came into fruition when asked Ruby if she would like to get away for the weekend on a romantic hike as far as they can go into the woods where they would spent most their time camping. Everyone else got the heads up they'd be gone. He and Ruby started out in the morning with their gear but sometime around noon, between the glances and the less than subtle touches and conversation points, he slowed to a stop when they came to the large clearing his brother described. The sun glimmered off the water; the stream itself gave life to the wild flowers and grasses that swayed in the wind before their very sight.

"What do you think? This is a good of a spot as any to set up camp." They should actually be able to enjoy some daylight and time together, right. Not expecting any complaints either, Sam slides his gear off his back to shrug it off on the ground.

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[peaceonearth]

Proposals seem like one of those things that would take planning. It's not something Ruby is expecting because she's a demon. However, because of that, it's a good thing that Sam had talked to Dean and his parents. John had been taken aback, but he's gotten to know Ruby well enough that he realizes she's not like the demons he's hunted (or maybe she is and she's just the first one he's gotten to know which is a whole other thing). In any case, everyone that loves Sam just wants him to be happy. Ruby makes him happy and when John and Dean forget that she's a demon, they like her.

Ruby and Sam have gone camping before and they'd been talking about doing it before it got too cold here so she isn't surprised when Sam suggests it. She's got no idea what Sam is planning. The glances, less than subtle touches and conversation points are all standard fare for them, but she's very glad when he suggests they stop for the day. She pretends to have a look around the clearing.

"Mmmmm," sh humsas she turns in a slow circle, her attention falling on Sam. "I like the view," she tells him with a purr, sliding her pack her back as well, her eyes fixed on him.

[weirddreams]

Dean and John and Mary liking Ruby enough to approve of it was the biggest thing. A part of Sam wouldn't have known if he could cope with splitting from his family to propose to Ruby if things had gone that way. Good thing it worked out.

Camping with Ruby was the most ideal in terms of privacy (or training with his powers) so he can't say his plan came together quickly enough. Although it counted for something to finally change all that. It wasn't cold nor warm as the season had quickly changed from Summer to early Autumn. His attention spends a moment on the clearing but naturally falls back to her around the time she declares a like for the view. He's used to the look behind her eyes that typically falls on him when they're alone. He'd go as far to say he's flattered (a little turned on) by it.

Sam grins at her a measured amount. "Obviously, you haven't seen anything yet." He is poking a little fun at her or being intentional in the phrasing. The whole point was the surprise waiting for her though. He moves closer so his arms wrap themselves around her waist, not breaking the eye contact they share. "I think I was missing the view a little, too."

[peaceonearth]

Ruby has grown on them (like mold).

It's a good time in the season to go camping. It's cool enough at night that snuggling next to a fire is ideal, but not so cold that they're miserable. The clearing has a great view, but Ruby is pretty partial to her personal view. Flattered is good; so is turned on. She thinks that's what this trip is about: sexcation, a few days alone.

Her eyes quirk up at his teasing, grin flitting across her lips. "Easy Puppy. We won't even get the tent up at this rate.' She leans into him when he wraps his arms around her. Stiletto heels aren't conducive to camping, so she's wearing hiking boots which leave her looking up at him. "Mmmmm," she hums at him. "I do love a tall man."

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She is a heart infection that Sam wants around for the rest of his life.

It goes without saying that it's part of the reason for the trip into the woods. Ruby can't know half of it. It would spoil the surprise if she did. A few days alone will be enough time to do the proposal right.

He almost considers the possibility of finding themselves without a tent for the night, just the two of them with one blanket under the stars. It is cold enough in the season to make him think twice. "You want to make the tent first?" Despite the signals the two of them are sending out, his hands hold her firmly. Truth be told, he finds her cuter when she is shorter compared to him. It does not bother him to slouch to meet her gaze either. "You've said that before." He tells her distracted by that hum she produces, though he can recall she said that the time they met. "I have a thing about short women too."

Is he trying to wind her up? The tent would be the logical thing to focus on, but there is still time in the day.

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That's something she'll be happy to stick around for.

It'll be a surprise worth waiting for and one that Ruby has no idea is coming.

It wouldn't be the worst way to spend a night. Maybe they'll spend part of the night like that looking up at the stars before Sam gets cold and they duck into the tent to warm up. "Want and need are two very different things, Samuel," she tells him with a soft lilt to her voice. A grin quirks the corners of her lips. "In that case, I'll accept being short."

Even though he holds her hands firmly, she glides her fingertips along his palms and along his wrists. She might be trying to wind him up as well.

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It wouldn't be the worst way to live out his life either.

Maybe and most likely to spend part of the night looking up at the stars are two different possibilities. Chances are they will and Sam won't get cold for a long while because of how quick his heartbeat is when her head rests on him. "Not to point out the obvious, Ruby, but we have a little time," he chuckles though doesn't necessarily argue with her. She's the boss today and if she wants to start on the tent, he tentatively picks up the bag they need to start. "Always be proud to be short."

His hold on her hands was firm, but they loosen to let her do as she'd like. Her fingertips leave behind a tingly trail and sensation in their wake, shifting his attention to watch her do this. Whatever she's doing, he smiles, for the both of them, really, because because. "You're sending mixed messages." His breath hitches.

He loves being able to see Ruby's softer side when they're alone.

[peaceonearth]

As long as their life is spent together, she'll be happy.

Ruby likes the idea of most likely and it's a bonus that she can keep his heart beating fast enough to keep him warm. She hums a little at his point then goes back up on her tiptoes to press a kiss against his mouth. After all, he did point out they have time. "You just like that I have to climb you like a tree," she teases him with a purr in her voice.

"Samuel, Puppy...I am a mixed message," she flirts with him, raising his wrist to hr lips. She hears that hitch in his voice and the tent is completely slipped her mind. The stars and the clearing is more romantic anyway.

[weirddreams]

With her by his side for the rest of his natural life, it would be fair to claim that he will always be warm without the aid of a blanket. He is turned on easily when she shifts the conversation to more intimacy and presses his lips heatedly right back on to hers. His hands help with that so climbing is necessary. "That might be part of it, but you do it so well," he admits because her teasing is like a truth serum.

Clearly she wants to be in charge tonight and, with a small thought, he lands on being fine with that. "So what do you suggest we do next to clear up the mixed messages?" Her flirting causes his pupils to dilate with a captivated glint in his eye.

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She'd be very disappointed if he weren't turned on. Oh yes, he's very good at picking her up and helping her wrap her legs around his waist.

For the moment, yes. Though she won't mind him taking charge either later on. Her lips curl into a devilish smile. "Hmmm," she pretends to ponder that a moment. "Why don't you get our sleeping bag out and lay it out. I'll see what I can do about making my intentions more clear," she tells him as she takes a step back and toe-heels her boots off before she starts slipping out of her jacket. Yeah, he's getting a mini strip tease without the music.

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[peaceonearth]

The weekend (had it just been a few days or had it been much longer? Ruby was having a hard time keeping track of time) had started out idyllic. It would likely be one of the last camping trips they were able to take until spring. The air was already getting chilly.

The perfection of the camping trip had been interrupted and Ruby was struggling to put the sequence of events together. She'd gone to gather up some firewood while Sam set up their tent but she'd been waylaid by a woman, slammed against a tree. They'd fought, but Tammy had always been stronger than Ruby (being one of the minor fallen angels aka a prince (ess) of Hell gave a demon a lot of power as did age). She hadn't been able to keep Tammy out and when she walked out of the woods out of the camp, leaving Tammy's crumpled host body in a stand of bushes) Ruby hadn't been...Ruby. Nor had she had any power to let Sam know that. Tammy/Ruby had hit Sam on the head hard with a piece of wood and that's where things start to get fuzzy. From the bits and pieces, she can remember, she ought to be thankful for that.

There'd been a slew of atrocities inflicted on her and Sam physically and emotionally (Tammy had been delighted to realize that Ruby actually had squishy, soft, fuzzy emotions for Sam). As per Tammy's M.O., she'd gotten bored and discovered that Sam and Ruby had put together a little family here, which opened up a whole new world of torture for Tammy. She'd gotten the wrong blonde twice (on purpose or by accident) but the horror had only increased when Tammy showed up with Lucy. from that point on, Lucy had borne the brunt of the physical torture, but Tammy had used the human blonde in every way she could imagine to torture Sam and Ruby.

It was ar from over yet....unless the other Winchesters came to the rescue.

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[weirddreams]

Similarly, Sam was having a difficult time placing the events since the afternoon in chronological order. One of the few things he could remember was taking the ring out of the secure place he had hidden it in his bag before things had gone dark. A nagging concern initially had been where the ring had gone when he woke but over time that concern turned on the well being of Ruby and to the blondes and Lucy when they were dragged in this mess. He pleaded to Tammy to let them go, do whatever she wanted with him, but that had just fueled the fire to go in the opposite direction. The result wasn't pretty. The first two blondes --Amber and Daisy. Sam had little trouble recalling their names-- had very little chance surviving what was in store for them. Lucy was different. She held on by a thread. She healed right in front of their eyes, albeit slowly. Sam had never seen anything like it in his life. A luminescent white glow of the skin would heal each injury into a scar or a bruise. Whatever it was, it was good.
His own injuries were substantial. However, when he was lucid, Sam willed himself to focus very little on the pain (all the aches and craving for blood). He heard most of the times when Ruby talked to him to keep him awake and oftentimes apologized or uttered encouragement over to Ruby or Lucy when he was lucid. Stuff like "It will be okay. We'll get out of this," or "I'm... I'm all right. How are you holding up?" 
It was fair from over, yes. Sam had every intention to keep their hopes up. Truth told there was very little hope unless someone rescued them. In time, Lucy's heart stopped too. Sam could feel himself slipping.
What did Dean and the others need? A sign would eventually come when things got dire and Sam asked Ruby to go with a really bad idea to stop Tammy. What idea--
The explosion caused every creature to flock in the opposite direction on the ground or the air. Under normal circumstances, the debris would have crushed everyone inside. Sam and Ruby had used their powers together to trap Tammy with them and remain unharmed (Lucy's body included). It was too much for him, though, and his heart stopped.
but it would start again minutes later. Sam gasped for air the second he was back. His vision was blurry but he could sense Ruby was still near. Trying to speak, he find he couldn't just yet, so his hand reached to touch her face.

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[peaceonearth]

Lucy was mostly too out of it to notice the healing. She's incredibly grateful for it in a subconscious sort of way. Lucy has a lot of problems, but she's never wanted to die and her life is(was) actually getting really good.

Ruby hears Lucy's heart stop and it breaks her a little more, but it's Sam's heart slowing that really makes Ruby decide that it's time. This idea has been percolating in the back of her mind since the moment Tammy kissed Sam with Ruby's blood all over her mouth. When Sam 'suggested' the idea, Ruby knew it was a bad one, but they didn't have a lot of choices good or bad. Lucy was dead and Sam wasn't going to last through another round of Tammy's fun.

The explosion did what it was meant to do. It trapped Tammy and left them (physically) unscathed. However, it was too much for Sam's heart. Ruby tried to talk to him. She told him to focus on her "stay with me, Sam". He'd died in her arms and she'd given him CPR. To be honest, Ruby isn't sure if it's the CPR or this place that brought him back. She doesn't care either. Sam's heart stuttering an irregular rhythm then evening out is the best sound she's ever heard in her entire existence.

The sound of the Impala approaching is a very close second.

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In his last moments, Ruby's words sounded as incoherent as everything else had slowly become, but the gist of what she was saying was clear from the look on her face. He smiled at her, weakly, the first time. Though he did do his best to hold on, it wasn't possible. He underestimated how much Tammy could do. It had been painless when he slipped away though.
The reverse, however, was true for when he took his first breath again. All his neurons fired in every direction to see that his nervous system would wake up. He came to with pangs afflicting his mind, but his senses came back one by one. The first was sight, blurriness then clarity, while his hand cupped her face then moved to squeeze her hand as he tested the sensation of his fingertips, completely numb at the time. He let the pain dull and gave himself time to soak in his current surroundings (the fact he was seeing Ruby at the top of the list).
"Ruby, did we make it to Heaven?" His voice was hoarse as he tried to speak coherently. How Ruby would be in Heaven is another matter entirely. Maybe, this was Hell.
If anyone deserved Heaven, at least Lucy did. She shouldn't have been involved from the start either.
The telltale sound of the Impala approaching was more white noise. 

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[peaceonearth]

Painless is something, but not enough for Ruby. She expects to have a great deal longer with Sam by her side. She'd been wholly unaccepting of Sam's death.


Tears pool in her eyes as Sam squeezes her hand. She squeezes his back hard, assuring him that it's okay; they're going to be okay now. However, his question manages to take her by surprise.

"No," she says almost too sharply. Her voice softens and she shakes her head. "Sam we're alive. You're fine. We're still in Itinre." She smoothes his hair off his face, fingertips sliding over Sam's cheekbones. This isn't Hell, but Ruby is also certain that she's not ever going to get into Heaven.

"I need to--I need to see about Lucy," Ruby tells him. "Lay here. Catch your breath." She carefully lays Sam on the floor and moves on hands and knees over to Lucy's body. She's not sure how long it's been since Lucy stopped breathing. Time sort of blurred a bit with the explosion of power.

The explosion served to expose Ruby and Sam's location. Ruby can hear Dean yelling Sammy several moments before the group of them burst into the ruined cabin. "Sammy!" Dean bellows, focusing on Sam, but taking in Ruby bent over Lucy. Castiel, John and Mary are close behind.

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[weirddreams]

If it was the way things were meant to be, the only thing he would leave unfinished would be not proposing to her and being able to say I do. There's no telling if what that attachment would mean for his spirit.

Fortunately, things have a way of playing in a Winchester's favor. He's never seen Ruby cry much less feel the tears trickle down on his face, so this would be a first. He squeezes her hand back as an assurance, but it definitely lacks in strength.

He can't tell right away why she would be sharp to answer. Heaven seems logical considering the events that occurred (Ruby belonging in Heaven isn't even a question), but he will take her word for it. "Alive... We're alive. I guess, I guess being alive has its upside. I won't have to explain to everyone how I ended up dead." Most of all her. Her fingertips rubbing the sides of his temple relax him the most and his eyes close for a few seconds more. He relaxes when she does that (magic fingers!).

When has she ever known Sam to listen to advice about his own wellbeing; Lucy being brought up brings him out of it. He twists over to one side to push himself and sit up. Lucy's physical self was miraculously untouched by the rubble around them as well. "Is she breathing?" Sam thought Ruby meant she was alive. "Help her." The lessons with Ruby have taught him to tap more than he thought was there.

Ruby can be the ears for both of them. Dean's voice isn't as clear as Ruby's being that she was next to him. Dean appearing from no where only startles him further. His first instinct is to push the hand that tries to help him off, only to settle down when he makes the connection. Castiel was right behind Dean, focused on going to Lucy's side. His grace was in stasis, and he couldn't use his powers to instantly heal her. Her current state filled him with dread. He could remember a trick he learned from Netflix though, and placed his fingers on her neck artery to check her pulse.

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[peaceonearth]

If it meant keeping him around, Ruby would take ghost Sam. She much prefers warm, flesh and blood Sam, though.

He’s never been dead before. He squeezes back. That’s enough.

“You know I wouldn’t let that happen, she tells him, her voice a little broken and hoarse. Yes, she’d find a way to bring him back if he died. That goes without saying. It’s good that he relaxes. He needs rest and medical care, but relaxing will do for the moment. She’d blown her power during the explosion so she doesn’t have the juice to do any healing, not right now.

He never listens to advice about his well being, which is why she’s goes ahead and helps him sit up. He’ll do more harm by struggling on his own. She shakes her head at his question. “I don’t think so.” She moves to Lucy’s body and tries some clunky, ineffective CPR. She’s pretty sure that it wasn’t her CPR that brought Sam back now.

The relief is obvious on Dean’s face and in his body when he sees Sam sitting up. “Let’s get him to the Impala,” John says as he rushes in behind Dean. It’s a relief for Dean to let John issue the orders.

Ruby moves away from Lucy, hands going up. “She’s not breathing and her heart...I was trying to help her.”

“Castiel , you and Mary get Lucy.” Whether she’s alive or not, they’re going to get her body back to the bunker. Johns gaze goes to Ruby. “Can you walk?”

Ruby nods. “Yes, but someone has to get Tammy,” she tilts her head to the body partially obscured by the rubble. “Sam and I knocked her unconscious, but she’s not dead.”

Dean scrubs a hand over his face and looks to Ruby. She tilts her chin up, preparing for a fight. “I’m staying with Sam.”

John looks to Dean then to Mary. “Dean and I will get Tammy, chain her and get her in the truck bed. You, Cas and Ruby get Sam and Lucy into the Impala. Head to the bunker. We’ll meet you there.”

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[weirddreams]

It probably goes without saying a lot of people prefer Sam flesh and bone, especially him.

Not in Itinere at least. It helps give him some assurance that he has to be alive because of how real her tight squeeze on him feels.

She saved him once before when they weren't even dating so what she tells him comes across as an understatement. Of course there is no doubt he could count on her. It's why he can see himself spending the rest of his life with her. "Yeah. I would do the same for you." He means that with every fiber of his being, though his voice is not exactly the strongest to carry the message. He should relax until they can find medical help. There isn't a lot of fuel left in his reserves either.

Lucy needs help more than he does at the moment. He barely can tell Ruby thanks, but doesn't resist the help either. He really shouldn't be sitting up as a matter of fact. "Keep trying," he insists. There's not a lot of evidence for him to think Ruby isn't responsible for reviving him. Lucy deserves the same. Sam once showed Ruby where the CPR books were and he has enough confidence if Lucy can be revived, she can manage to do it.

Recognizing that Dean finally showed up is his own relief and subconsciously, Sam lets him help. "What? Hold on a second. We can't just leave Lucy." He means he can't without knowing if she wakes up or not. There's a lot he feels responsible for right now. John giving the orders is irrelevant.

Cas moves to take Ruby's spot over Lucy's body. He briefly glances over to Ruby, not to look at her with blame but work out if there's anything else (apparently not). Suffice to say he can't give up on Lucy just yet and continues CPR on her with mouth to mouth as he's seen on the Netflix. They can move her only if that doesn't work. Mary gives him space until Cas is ready for the assist to bring her body back with them.

Sam follows the conversation by searching the rubble for the body of their oppressor. He supports Ruby with a sigh of relief in what she's saying if anyone catches it.

Mary meets John's look and agrees, extending her hand for the keys to the Impala. She can get them there the fastest with her driving. "Don't take too long. I will need both of you there." Tammy deserves what is coming to her, but Mary worries her companions (Ruby and Castiel) won't have the clearest heads when they get back. Sam can sit up front with Ruby so there is space for Lucy in the back when they move them.

Aftermath

[mightbeconcussed]

Ultimately, Lucy and Sam had only to deal with their injuries for a couple of days and during that time, Carmen kept them relatively high on pain meds, which made it entertaining for everyone else involved. The moment Cas had gotten his grace back he'd healed Lucy. Sam had been next.

The first thing Lucy had done was have Cas take her back to her apartment so she could pack a bag. She had no intention of staying anywhere alone right now, and all the Winchesters, Castiel included, had assured her that there was no reason for her to go anywhere. It was a relief and it made her feel loved and cared for that they were all so willing to have her close.

She worried, of course, that she was pushing things too far and too fast with Castiel. After all, they hadn't committed to her being a girlfriend, much less a live-in girlfriend. She told herself and everyone else that it was just for a little while until she got her feet back under her. Of course, in the way that Lucy overthinks everything. she also considered that maybe that was an insult to Cas, that he would think she only wanted to live with him because she was scared of living alone. Relationships, in her opinion, were complicated enough without adding all of these extra complexities to it and yet....here they were in a relationship with a heap of complexities and outside issues. She rambled to Cas as she packed, but never about anything important because as she'd told him while she was high on pain medication: it was scary to talk to him about the important things when she was certain he was real. There's also a certain level of intimidation in talking to him about such....human trivialities when he's a full-blown angel. After all, how much more ridiculous must she sound to him then. Honestly, Lucy has far more issues and insecurities than her demeanor would ever lead anyone to believe. Like another person near and dear to Castiel's heart, Lucy tends to stuff everything down and let it come out in alcoholism, cheerfulness, and cupcakes.

It had made everything seem a little better for Lucy, a little more distant, to have her injuries erased, but she'd been left with the memories of what had been done to her and those memories led to nightmares every time she closed her eyes. The one consolation when she wakes up sobbing is that Castiel wasn't actually asleep to begin with. The lack of sleep she's getting does mean that she takes cat naps throughout the day and often, if she falls asleep on Cas, she doesn't wake up screaming; she just sort of startles awake. He makes her feel safer and that bleeds into her nightmares, making them seem a little less real and a little less painful.

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[weirddreams]

Sam and Lucy have done some pretty comical things while high ranging from Sam's appetite switch to Lucy's "Can I borrow a kiss? I promise to return it." The minute Cas had his grace return he stirred awake and just knew it had. The soft glow of his grace mended her and Sam within minutes. It had not been instantaneous, which he kept to himself. Everybody needed the relief. He wanted that to be the focus.

Of course, Cas went with her to the apartment. Dean loaned him a duffel bag and the angel set it on the ledge of her bed when she opened her closet doors. He took everything she passed to him and folded it neatly to place inside. The truth is that they all loved her and thought it wouldn't be a good idea to home to pack alone. Castiel volunteered because he does love her a great deal. They hadn't spoken about what she meant when she was on pain meds but this was his way of showing his feelings in return.

There are a lot of things Cas does not overthink and one of those things is what Lucy's committing to by staying with them for a while. Don't get him wrong; he's overjoyed, but under no circumstances does he jump to the conclusion that they're as far as a couple or married with this. He's content with her being thoughtful of her own safety and entrusting him with it. He tried to keep up with the conversation as she moved about the room, but more often than not had to ask about a subject or reference or three. It grows clearer the time and place for talking about what she said before is neither here or now. No, she would not sound trivial if she had opened up about it again. The last couple of days have only just opened up his thoughts around how deeply he does love her like another person dear to his heart, but with more desire burning underneath it all. There's a level of uncertainty as an angel on how to convey that, especially with the limited words of the English language.

Truth is Castiel could tell right away the memories were haunting her, but he had hoped over the next couple of days the nightmares were subside. He made it so he had not left her side once since his grace returned and he was there to rub her back as she shed her tears. This time around when she wakes with a start, he uses a small portion of grace to give her a feeling of calm and his thumb to remove a trail of sweat off her brow. It did not ease his concern though because she wasn't sleeping very well in the first place or improving. It finally dawned on him that there was another option. "I have a proposal for you. Your memories-- I can wipe them so you can sleep better at night." It's not an idea he suggests lightly because it has permanent effects, but he only wishes her to feel safe again.

Re: Aftermath

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Everyone had needed the amusement anyway. Lucy had thought her plan for borrowing kisses from Cas had been the most brilliant one. To be fair, she still thinks it was a fairly good plan and it had worked. As far as Lucy, Sam, and everyone else had known, that healing had been instantaneous. Cas ought to talk to Dean about it, eventually, but he's probably right that that moment hadn't been the right time.

Lucy was relieved to have Cas go with her; yes, any of them could have come with her, but she prefers Cas because it does say something about his feelings for her. She knows he's fond of her and that he feels affection for her (and that he desires her a good deal of the time), but his presence as well as the way he handles her things reinforce that.

Lucy is a giant chicken when it comes to feelings and relationships. She's terrified of getting her heart broken, and somehow believes that if she doesn't talk about it, it won't happen. She remembers what she said, and she knows the words are true, but saying those words and admitting those feelings is something else entirely. Quite frankly, it's made her a giant ball of nerves when she's alone with Castiel. She is afraid of sounding trival, of being dismissed, of ruining what they've got (which is a pretty good thing). Maybe, if she thought she could find all the right words...no, she'd be a big chicken even then. The last several days have given Lucy a lot to think about as well. She'd thought she was going to die in that cabin with Sam and Ruby. She'd thought a lot about all the things she'd never done or said or would ever get to do. Castiel had factored into a lot of those things.

She is grateful beyond words that Cas hasn't left her side. She'd awake from a nightmare and burrow herself into Cas. It had made those nightmares fade a bit faster and confirmed reality for her. Unfortunately, the nightmares had been waiting for her when she fell asleep once again. It had resulted in a reluctance to sleep as well as restless sleep. Her brow furrows at Castiel's suggestion. "What--I mean all my memories or...which memories?"

Re: Aftermath

[weirddreams]

Sam definitely had no filter when it came to food or how beautiful Ruby was. Castiel had been happy to oblige her with kisses that were returned. As far as brilliant ideas go, it was pretty brilliant. The time for Cas to tell Dean will come when things settle down.

She can tell him when she is ready, or never at all. At some point someone is going to have to stay something before it runs on too long though. Maybe it could be Cas. He doesn't see him going back but more forward in life and that includes this growing relationship with Lucy.

"The memories of your kidnapping." He wouldn't never erase her life, but neither will he skirt around his thought process.

Re: Aftermath

[mightbeconcussed]

Ruby certainly hadn't minded that lack of filter. She needed the reassurance that Sam still loved her after everything they've been through. Lucy remembers how willing Castiel had been to oblige her and she appreciates it.

One of these days she'll tell him. The good news is that once she spills, she won't stop telling him she loves him. She'll say it often. It remains to be seen if she'll say those words first or if Cas will. If it happens to him, he won't have to fear any sort of awkwardness or rejection. Lucy has begun to consider her future and that it might (hopefully) include Castiel. It's a big step for her.

Her expression settles into one of contemplation as she turns the idea over in her head. "Will it--will it be like a blackout where I can't remember a few days or just like it never happened and I had a particularly boring few days?"

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[weirddreams]

Sam had a few naughty things to tell her when he thought nobody else was listening either. Let's just say considering how high he was at the time, that wasn't always when they were actually alone. Cas had found the kisses had seemed to help Lucy through the ordeal too.

Often is more than he can picture at the moment. There's a between where they are now and "I love you." All that is to suggest is that he suspects there will be a one day with Lucy, but it won't be before she is ready. Her cues are just as important as anything and Cas tries his best to understand them.

He understands her hesitation and gives her time to think it over. It is completely her choice. "It will be whatever you want it to be. If you want to remember it as a few boring days, that's what I can do. If you want it to be exciting, I can do this too."

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And Ruby had been a very good girl and not molested him right there in the bed. Of course, they'd helped Lucy through the whole ordeal. They'd made her feel safe, loved and distracted her from anything bad.

It's more than she can fathom at the moment as well. They're definitely in that between, but it's good that they're both looking toward a one day with each other. Lucy is so afraid of being the only one all in; it's clear enough for Lucy to suspect that Cas is all in as well, though she can't fathom why. She's getting there and she's trying not to give him mixed cues. He does a good job of understanding them.

Her brow furrows as she considers that. She's not surprised that he can change her memories. She shakes her head at his offer. "No. If it's going to be exciting, I want it to be real. Just a few quiet, boring days. The kind I can have any day of the week. We'll do the exciting days for real."

Re: Aftermath

[tiredofurinating]

Fortunately, her cues are a lot like Dean's so Cas thinks he understands them.

It is one of the few things he believes he can still do with his fractured wings. For a brief moment, he can only assume she has rejected his offer until her words clarify what her head shake meant. "Yes. I understand. You want the last couple of days to be believable... What do you picture that looks like?" Sorry, he still isn't the most creative angel. However, the talk about doing exciting things for real-- that takes no amount of imagination. "You mean have sex?"